My GOD it's been a long time since I've visited! Weeks, months, it feels like years.

Here's an update: I am officially unemployed. One week ago today I was called into the HR office at the snakepit and told that my position has been eliminated. I had to restrain myself from jumping for joy right then and there - I waited until I was driving home.

Unemployment is a double-edged sword. Money troubles and the threat of boredom is looming at the edge of my relief of being freed from a cubicled prison full of boredom and discontent. I am so used to constantly working - there was a time in my life where I held down three jobs because I liked the feeling of constant business - that now I wander around and wonder what my purpose is.

BUT, on the bright side, I never have to sit at that desk again. I'll never feel like I am doing something wrong when I speak to a coworker - yes, I was reprimanded several times for speaking to other people.

And now, I am searching for my dream job. It's out there somewhere, I just have to find it. It's like a scavenger hunt. I'm also waiting for the sun to come out so I can work on my tan - 70 degrees and cloudy does not please me today.

I found myself wandering around the apartment on Monday, my first official day of unemployment. I had finished cleaning by 1 p.m. and had nothing to do. I applied for jobs, then sat and waited for the phone to ring. What does one do with all this extra time?